iRap iSing iLove...God?

this is for the church going , god fearing , Jesus loving.... music folk.

singers, rappers, and producers. at first when people told me about these aspirations i thought, that's awesome. but the number of people who are reaching for this ONE particular dream is growing by the second. everyone has a studio, is making a beat, or singing on youtube waiting for that ONE person to catch a glimpse of them singing a song HOPING to become the next Dondria or Justin Beiber. Im not one to smash on dreams but is it really the music that your longing for and love? or is it the fame and the glamour that has caught your eye?

i know a lot of singers who I'm sure would thank GOD if they got a Grammy but never heard them using the gift for god in church. I know dancers, who want so bad to make it but Ive never seen you perform a praise worship song in the form of dance. there are RAPPERS, who say " i just need a stage and a mic" who i NEVER see on Sunday's asking for a few min to share their talent. its not the music that you are seeking... its the fame.

dont tell me i dont know what im talking about. i LOVE to sing. i have my own recording space. and i use it to be creative and its SATISFYING. Ive taking music CLASSES and sang on the praise team , been a part of the dance team, drama team. dont tell me u want to be a star and your not taking advantage of all the opportunities you have that's right in front of you. waiting for that BIG break? for god to bless you , why would he bless you with MORE when your not even taking the blessing he has for you NOW?

and for those who want to argue this "but i really just love music" - then go to school to be a music teacher.... dance instructor .... vocal trainer. use every source and POUR your love for it into something that will be positive and take advantage of the chances you have right in front of you. start here... right here.. right now.

poem.

something like a heart attack
i grab my arm i grab my neck
I CANT BREATHE this it too much to take
theres no cure for this kind of ache

but you

ever since youve been gone ive been ripped into pieces
with each passing day the joy i had with you decreases
but i cant forget you, cant move on, it cant be over
even if i take a step ahead im still looking for u over my sholder

its tru

what could i have done , to derserve such a pain
losing my head , my sanity im trying to retain
as i rack my brain trying to figure this all out
lets trade places, figure out what its about

im ill


the seconds turn to days time stiil hasnt healed all wounds
all over me are scars you left that still burns like new
but ive stopping lookin back cause ur long and wont be back
just gotta keep going im finally on the right track

i'll heal

delusional deceptions

i love you , more then my life
my life id lay down to have yours kept id fight
id move the world if it did you wrong
but you cant see it , blinded by your past wrongs

im not my father , im not your mother
im not your sister or distant brother
i am not just me but half of you
everything thats in you is in me too

"your just like your father" delusional deceptions
"im more depended then she is" its obvious i get it
im grown and your lost just you on your own
you hate it, i get it but its time to move on

i want to forever love you, never feel a distance
i dont want to be like my sister and feel un'existed
hate to break it to you but your getting no where
with the rate that your going,, i'll no longer care

"your just like your mother" more rude my the day
soon superficial love shall come into play
i cant live with someone who cant appreciate a thing
and thanks herself for the help in the family that i bring

im not saying i do it all. but not say im not a part
is like saying no daughter, your not really a part
a convenience for now, but nothing you do
is enough to say daughter, i want to thank you too

So Ignorant: Light Skin Vs Dark Skin [Documentary Trailer]

DARK VERSES LIGHT.

are we serious people?
its come to this. we still got white people following us around in stores but we that got boring so i guess we are set on downgrading ourselves? since when can't i be beautiful cause your are too?

i love a chris brown and a trey songz. but i will kill to come CLOSE idris elba

its sad that i would be considered less and its sad that darker people feel like that have more to prove. i wasn't raised to feel less then and I'll be damned if i come across someone who dared to try it.

now light or dark; there are blessed people and less then blessed people when it comes to looks. and let me tell you it has not a thing to do with skin. all i see are insecure people blaming their color for why are are ignorant people who i am ashamed to call my race. light or dark... u were a slave not a master. remember that.

and to say cause your light your hair is better. i can laugh at that considering the best hair ive seen has been on a dark person. please lets not put ourselfs in a smaller box then the one we were put in and we already have to fight to get out of.

PROP 8.

i thought the prop 8 crap was over. guess not. and i voted yes on it. sorry but its my vote not yours. and i never got upset if someone voted no. or if someone had a strong opinion on it. cause its your personal opinion. but this video upset my spirit. and offended me as a black woman and a christian.



first of all. dont compare hundred of years of slavery to you wanted to marry a man.
if u want me to think of you as black slaveys then let me put some chains on you , separate you from your family , beat you , change your name , and hang you when you learn to read. dont EVER think that because u have rules you cant break that you are like the African American history of people who had to fight to LIVE , u can LIVE. dont ever demean my heritage to a piece of government paper. ever!

point 2 marriage... which is a christian act of a man and woman becoming one. NOT a government. any christian who voted no on prop 8 voted against god.. EXAMPLES;;





Leviticus 18:22 ESV

You shall not lie with a male as with a woman; it is an abomination.



1 Corinthians 6:9-10 ESV

Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.


NOW , another argument... separate church from state. RIGHT? ok well if we do that COMPLETELY , then only Christians can get married... come on now.. NOT HAPPENING.

i understand that you want equality , but u have it. do NOT expect me to BEND how i feel to make what your doing right. SORRY but thats not happening... just like u dont like when i say your wrong for letting a man in ur butt hole.. ur wrong for saying my god was wrong when he said a man shall not lay with another man.


god also says love everyone and only hate the sin. i have plenty of gay friends and gay people in my life who i will never look down on or love less. but i will never ok the act of being gay. as long as i am loving on them like i am suppose too. and being who i am suppose to be. then dont you dare come at me as a christian black woman and say i am any less for being who i am. yes some people are not being the correct examples of christians.. but that doesnt mean we all are.

come correct , or dont come at all.

untitled

ur the forbidden fruit
untouchable
against the rules
you who i said id never
and yet ur here

ur not the one i wanted
the one i thought
the one who would be
i kept saying id never
yet you still appeared


its something about when you speak to me and you smile
its hard to look you in the eye cause it makes ur presence worth while
why weren't you around back when i needed someone like you
but your here now , and the timing was perfect , like u had a cue

didn't have a clue , just ur name alone would make my heart skip a beat
butterflies come up slow and discreet , and you dont even compete
with my past and all the bs that came with me cant interrupt
my baggage checked at the gate & when im off ur flight , i can pick it back up


first class ride and im gonna enjoy every second of it
fly to cloud nine frontal view from the cockpit, we all up in it
i may press buttons but our destination will not be delayed
we'll land safe in heaven on earth & visit around and then off again to fly away

FROM A LADYS POINT OF VIEW. what we want

what we want.. is a man. to respect us , protect us . love and cherish us.
someone who doesn't use us , lie , someone who is 100% real if not with ANYONE else but with them. yet , we seek out these...

no good , wanna be , not ready for a REAL relationship type men
and some of us try so hard to get attention that we attracted disrespectful , dirtbags who think ur just gonna give it up. and SOME OF YOU DO. and expect him to respect you. or think getting all the attention at the party means he might see you and fall in love... when he see you he not trying to get to know your face , he wants his dick ... in YOU

all that ass out aint cool... DDD's pouring out a turtle neck .. aint cool
now see i say we and us cause some of my shirts are LOW and i understand that i have to prove sometimes that my perverted ass is indeed a lady lol.

Now i see BEAUTIFUL GIRLS , looking like a ho and demanding the respect of a woman. your just a lil girl playing dress up. nothing wrong with a cute lil dress and a low cut shirt but ALL THE TIME . at any point do males look at ur face?. talk to you and listen?. take you out and give you a HUG and not grind on you.? how many know your middle name? where you grew up... he not trying to get to know you if he not TRYING TO GET TO KNOW YOU

we want these gentlemen but we allow the young men to lower our standards and we seek the love that we want with simple short gratifications that shortly feed the void of temporary love that most girls want, and slip into the whoreishness that you didnt even realize was happening. Once you stop and realize .. this aint right.. it'll feel so much better to just let go of the thinking that has been imprinted in ur mind of how to please a REAL man.. id rather be respected then have a bf who will do me wrong in the end. if we know what we want... then wait til we get what WE WANT. he fine but he dont have what your requiring for your happiness.... put some clothes on so he can see you and ask questions , and not drool on ur shirt... just cause we want something dont mean its meant for us to have it now... we aint ready , they aint ready.... simmer down now