poem.

something like a heart attack
i grab my arm i grab my neck
I CANT BREATHE this it too much to take
theres no cure for this kind of ache

but you

ever since youve been gone ive been ripped into pieces
with each passing day the joy i had with you decreases
but i cant forget you, cant move on, it cant be over
even if i take a step ahead im still looking for u over my sholder

its tru

what could i have done , to derserve such a pain
losing my head , my sanity im trying to retain
as i rack my brain trying to figure this all out
lets trade places, figure out what its about

im ill


the seconds turn to days time stiil hasnt healed all wounds
all over me are scars you left that still burns like new
but ive stopping lookin back cause ur long and wont be back
just gotta keep going im finally on the right track

i'll heal

delusional deceptions

i love you , more then my life
my life id lay down to have yours kept id fight
id move the world if it did you wrong
but you cant see it , blinded by your past wrongs

im not my father , im not your mother
im not your sister or distant brother
i am not just me but half of you
everything thats in you is in me too

"your just like your father" delusional deceptions
"im more depended then she is" its obvious i get it
im grown and your lost just you on your own
you hate it, i get it but its time to move on

i want to forever love you, never feel a distance
i dont want to be like my sister and feel un'existed
hate to break it to you but your getting no where
with the rate that your going,, i'll no longer care

"your just like your mother" more rude my the day
soon superficial love shall come into play
i cant live with someone who cant appreciate a thing
and thanks herself for the help in the family that i bring

im not saying i do it all. but not say im not a part
is like saying no daughter, your not really a part
a convenience for now, but nothing you do
is enough to say daughter, i want to thank you too